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Gorillas

Of the primates, the Gorilla is the largest. They live throughout the jungles and forests of Africa. Besides the chimpanzee, they are the closest living relatives to humans. Their DNA is 97% - 98% identical to humans. They have a life span of 30 to 50 years. The average male weighs anywhere from 310 to 440 pounds and 5 feet 5 inches to 5 feet 9 inches in height. Females average 4 feet 7 inches in height and about 220 pounds. There is a gestation period of 8 ½ months. The human gestation period is 9 months. Another similarity humans and gorillas share is individual fingerprints. Gorillas are considered to be very intelligent. Case in point, there have been some gorillas in the wild who have been seen using “tools” such as sticks to test the depth of water, logs as bridges and rocks to open nuts.

Raised as a Luthern

Growing up I was raised as a Lutheran, but as I got older I began to question things. When I turned to our Pastor to try and get answers, he told me it is this way because the Bible says so. Not a very good answer in my opinion so I drifted away. I still called on God to help me in my time of need, but of course things still didn’t go too well. I tried to have faith and wanted to go to church and did a few times over the years. It didn’t feel natural to me. Yet, I still held some sort of belief. I just wasn’t sure what it was.

Love

It took me a long time to realize love is NOT supposed to hurt. As a child and young adult I have been through physical and emotional abuse. It took the support and love of my children to make me realize that that is not how someone is supposed to treat another that they claim they love. There are many ways to show someone you love and care for them. However, raising your hands in anger is not one of them. Controlling every aspect of their life is not love. Keeping them away from family and friends is not showing them you love them. Making them feel insignificant and worthless is not loving them. Love is giving respect, being honest and open to one another. It is communicating with words when there is a problem and working it out together. Unless you have a reason not to trust the one you love then trust them. Love is many good and positive things.

Passing Away

I was a few months shy of 21 when my mother passed away in 1993. It was very hard on me. We had gotten into an arguement and I couldn't even tell you what it was about. Something stupid would be my guess. Anyway, the last words I said to her as she left for work were, "you're a fucking bitch!" Nice, huh. To this day it still bothers me that those were the last words she heard from me. I have forgiven myself and promised to have a much better relationship with my children. I'm not saying that I didn't have a good relationship with my mother. I just think it could have been much better. I love her and I know wherever she is that she knows it.

Going back to school

I have always wanted to continue my education throughout my adult life, but always had excuses not to. First, I was pregnant with my daughter so I made that an excuse not to go back. Then, I had 2 kids to support so I made that an excuse. When I started to think about going back again, I got pregnant and used that as another excuse. Finally, I was given an opportunity to go back and though I tried, I couldn’t find a legitimate excuse not to go. I am in the program and love it. This is an opportunity for me to quit going from job to job and have a career. Also, I have begun looking into additional courses to further my education. I am on my way……